
“Insight of the Soul,” acrylic on canvas, by Steve Perrault, 2014.
These sheep have no choice either
though even in summer
they still want to hear the truth
just by staring back at the grass
lifelike —it’s not for you
they hold power here, let go
nothing, not their fleece
not these sleeves, face to face
—you have no right to stand so close
as if a second sky would wave you past
make room, gather in the Earth
and lift :a small hillside
anything! to mourn —the dead
are here somewhere
not yet marble, not yet enough.
This path so like the others
doesn’t know where else to go
and for each funeral
you build another hallway
in another mountain, the palaces
filling with a great rockslide
though you’re never sure, the shovel
is bent from sunsets and distances
has hands already coming due
and what chance has the small room
this frail stone gives off
coming here to die.
The ground so slow to heal
has yellowed though the camera
injected a faint gloss
calmed the family and friends
still afraid to move the body
—not too close! Your cheek
could scare her off and the snapshot
tree and all, left empty
cared for by the sun alone
can’t get a hold :each evening
hides in front with the small lake
pressed against her forehead
that has nothing to warm
and though the frame is wood
you shake it the way leaves
once left in place tell you
here! among the kisses
with no time to lose.
You still use rain, breathe in
till your mouth is full
—you can’t jump clear, grow huge
on a sky that has no holes, no Earth
—what did you say, what words
were helped along, holding on to the others
all the way down, facing the sun
though who know where this thirst
first as ashes, now your own
is kept warm for the whispers
not needed anymore –only rain
as necessary as bending down
comes this close and your voice
more and more feeble, bathes you
lowers you, covers you.
You button from the bottom
let these sleeves take hold
reaching across as the silence
that’s used to an old army shirt
slowing your descent into skies
unable to open again though your arms
are already huge, half silk
half the first evening on Earth
—you never see the ground
not because the room is dark
or when was the last time
you circled between your fingers
a single thread that is not white
could pull you back into nothing
nothing! nothing! the nothing
you hear alongside the others
tightening the fit till even the mornings
depend on darkness and cries.
Star by star you add a word
the way the Earth still darkens
from the bottom up, lets you hold on
keep it from shedding just its light
and your fingers —you write
as if this stone was already black
and step by step your child-like name
pinned on to become its last breath
while you steer the lettering back home
leave spaces for this iron waterfall
to point from under some mountainside
at whispers that no longer move
smothered by braids, shoulders, kisses
that are yours, oceans, winds, mornings
blacker than this dirt and lost.
You no longer bathe
though a cold rain
flows through one arm
grieves the way each river
carries off its slow descent
with a deadly hold
—around these gravestones
your smelly leather jacket
still arranged so its sleeves
spread-eagle, are packed
with a sky already darkened
by the more and more feathers
that have no heading yet
and your shoulders without hope
weightless over the water.
These stones too steep, cling
the way the overcast side by side
lets through one star —in the open
you devour its incinerating light
and distances though the grass
has just been mowed and watered
knows all about how the night sky
stands back, erect, righteous
between each grave and winter
where you lean over to drink
—always the same cold air
two mornings at a time, and choke.
Hours! you walk the way this dirt
is hammered, each heel brought home
where the Earth broke apart, opened
for the sound scraped off closed doors
and burning hair —these black shoes
need a rag soaked in moonlight, rubbed
till the shine comes from further off
spreads out, not yet a field, struggles
though each step starts with the dead
then stops, forgets how, expects one leg
to tighten the other as if every bone
thickens in the center, needs more coming in
and leaving, more dirt, more nails
—everything you touch you pull up, freed
from the afternoons, the graves, and the drift.
This stone on your forehead
stays white between these hands
that never let go though you
were not thinking about winter
and distances filled with peaks
that cannot be saved by groans
and thinning trees now that rain
seeps into your ears and shadows
flow past one by one, held down
by a stone that blankets the Earth
—you hear nothing about these kisses
turning into snow and moonlight
as something invisible :plumes
slowly covering you from behind
with emptiness and bare shoulders.

Simon Perchik is an attorney whose poetry has appeared in Partisan Review, The Nation, The North American Review, Poetry, The New Yorker, and many others. His work is collected in twenty books, most recently Almost Rain (River Otter Press, 2013). Library Journal called him “the most widely published unknown poet in America.”