Before We Give Back the Keys

“Open Doors,” oil on canvas, by Vilhelm Hammershøi, 1905.

by Kimmy Chang

Dragging the hose through the kitchen,
I stand behind the window screen
and aim at the mud-dauber nest
sealed to the sill—a small clay room.

Forgive me, I say,

as water opens it.

You ask if it was empty.
I tell you no one was home.

Later, pruning the roses,
I hear a buzz catch
in the leaves.

Under the cherry tree,
split fruit sweetens in the grass.
The parsley burns
at the pot’s dry rim.

I keep looking

until you call twice
from the front porch.

At the doorway, lifting the last box,
I see where the couch struck the wall
the day we carried it in.

“Before We Give Back the Keys” originally appeared in Hollow and Sky.

Kimmy Chang is a McKinney-based writer and computer-vision engineer. A 2026 Writers’ League of Texas Fellow and Pushcart Prize nominee, her work has appeared or is forthcoming in Apple Valley Review, wildscape. literary journal, Qu Literary Magazine, and Third Wednesday, among others. Read more at www.kchang.xyz.

The Company of Shallow Holes

“Granny’s Backyard,” oil on canvas, by Simon Kozhin, 2007.

by Dino Parenti

One unremarkable March day, a man began puncturing random holes in his withered pasture with a post-hole digger. Not deep holes, but shallow, exploratory exhumations, as if testing for integrity, or moisture for some future well.

First, he pockmarked the center of his lot before spiraling outwards from there, ending eight hours later with hundreds of punctures. He was a scoured man: skin and joints far too cragged and knotted for middle age. A man who had gone off to Iraq with a boxer’s bearing in 2004 to drive tanks, only to return pummeled and slumped by crusade.

Years later, he became known only as the neighborhood hermit. No wife, no children, no callers stopping by. Every other morning, come 9am, he would drive his rust-beaten hydrostatic mower in circles around the yowling dog he kept chained to a barren flagpole in the middle of the yellow crabgrass pasture, blaring drunken, unintelligible inquiries of the animal, of the ground, of the sky.

At night, slouched in a back-porch recliner molting its limp, brown leather, he would sip in silence, glaring askance at the moon, paying the caterwauling dog no heed. The neighbors knew less of the man than they did the animal: Millie, an equally battered cur of some hybrid wolf stock. A wholly neglected beast, howling hunger and isolation in the middle of the night whenever not engaged in her singular entertainment of gnawing at wilting sunflower stalks. Every fifteen minutes, her owner would yell at her from the back porch, or from inside his sagging, cavernous house: NOT MY FAULT! And for a few minutes she would, perhaps expecting him to come and split his forlornness with her as pals might a beer. But he never did, and Millie never failed to remind him of his neglect.

Then, one especially foggy day, Millie was gone. The rope that had moored her to her fifty-square-foot universe sat frayed at the end like a bridesmaid’s spray of baby’s breath.

Shortly thereafter, the man began digging his holes, mumbling as he went; meek, under-the-breath vocalizations with no discernable words, though one woman gardening behind a dried tangle of sumac would later claim to have heard him growl repeatedly “Where is it?” and “Bad intel” through gritted teeth as he plunged oxidized spades into his barren earth, drawing apart the handles with the grunts of a power-lifter, as if trying to split prehistoric wishbones.

By the time he was done, hands blistered and shaking, he had scooped out some two hundred eight-by-twelve-inch craters. That night, he propped up work lights around the four corners of his lot and flared them inwards, then sat squinting from his recliner as if expecting something to climb steaming and wailing from one of the pitch-black cavities.

One dawn, the light blue and the mist stitching between the hillocks, he overturned his mower and hosed down the undercarriage with one hand while the other crabbed over his face, his shoulders hitching as if shrugging off some private interrogation.

The next day, he went out and returned with sacks of dog food. He filled every hole until they mounded over with kibble. For days after, he sat in his recliner, watching the holes and the horizon. At night the pasture came alive with raccoon and opossum chitter, and he would bolt out naked, wading through tracers of fireflies, his drunken shrieks scattering the critters as he wept his apologies to Millie’s pole, and slowly the holes became unearthed anew, albeit by opportune tooth and claw.

Another day, he wandered into the pasture with two large clear bags of tea lights and plunked one into the bottom of each tiny crater. It took hours, some of the initial candles snuffing out in the last of their wax before he could replace them. Tiny cauldrons flickering orange—as if molten metal sloshed within.

He isn’t all there, his neighbors would mutter. Still others would suggest that maybe the war had turned him psycho. No one ever approached him.

One Friday, he ramped the mower onto the bed of his truck, only to return with the bed brimming with fertilizer. He scooped some into each hole, doled in what looked like seeds, then added more fertilizer until the darker soil bumped proud against the gray-brown loam like a smattering of moles across a sallow back.

In two weeks the sprouts crept through, and the man watered throughout, and he watched from his porch, and he drank, and in a couple of months, two hundred perfectly contained sunflower plots were thriving, gazing east.

And still he watched and drank.

The last time anyone saw him alive was some time in summer. One neighbor claimed to have seen him wandering into his forest of sunflowers—by then as tall as the man himself—a bottle held behind him as if clutching the hand of a coquettish sweetheart.

Late fall, as the sunflowers drooped and the cold rehoned the air, a utility worker on his first month home from Kandahar found the man’s body, desiccated amongst his flowers. Inside his house, charts drawn on the floor and walls of every room. Gridded plots of the property superimposed over tanned maps smattered in Arabic towns. Parabolic courses and coordinates. Intricate lists of dates and times he’d mowed and which areas, along with percentages and question marks. Arrows pointing to a variety of holes, adorned with progressively larger question marks. All figures ending in question marks. Numbers dwindling fast as they moved east.

Bewildered and curious, neighbors prodded the worker for more information, but he shared nothing else—not of seeing the man’s body fetaled and hugging a sheaf of sunflower stalks, nor of the dog collar clutched in his hand, severed clean before the buckle.

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Dino Parenti is a writer of dark, speculative fiction. Author of the novella, Bitter Breed, as well as the Imadjinn Award Finalist short-fiction collection, Dead Reckoning and Other Stories, he also won the first annual Lascaux Review flash fiction contest and was featured in the Anthony Award winning anthology Blood on the Bayou. He lives in Los Angeles.

What I Most Love About God is His Love of Basketball

“The Blind Leading the Blind,” tempera on canvas, by Pieter Brueghel the Elder, 1568.

by Carlos Andrés Gómez

How could I not believe in God
when He loves basketball

this much? Post-win, the coach
first praises Him: We serve

an unbelievable God. I consider faith.
The divinely anointed. But belief

is hard when a forced famine takes
shape, rising parabola like the arc

of a logo three, while the word genocide
triggers a blacklist only the laid bare

truth could earn. When the options
are the Final Four or what

The New York Times insists
we call war—and all of humanity’s

fate rests in your hands—who
wouldn’t be tempted by courtside?

Uncommon favor, we never doubted
for a moment, walk by faith. I want

a God who shows up where
He is most needed. Or

at all. Boiled weeds. Small
fingers pick through animal

feed. I once thought God
was all-powerful, a bearded

White man. Now I’m convinced:
He’s too much like me. Jumbled

priorities, distracted, unwashed
bowls piling up in the sink.

Carlos Andrés Gómez is a Colombian American poet and the author of “Fractures,” winner of the Felix Pollak Prize in Poetry. Winner of the International Book Award, Gómez has been published in The Nation, New England Review, Academy of American Poets’ Poem-a-Day series, The Sunday Times, The Yale Review, and elsewhere. Carlos is a graduate of the University of Pennsylvania and the MFA Program for Writers at Warren Wilson College.

Gravity

“The Abbey in the Oakwood,” oil on canvas, by Caspar David Friedrich, 1810.

by Alexei Varah

I no longer find it romantic,
how before the sun dazzles the waking
with dancing oranges, reds, and pinks,
the nighttime cedes its blackness to
a soft shade of blue—
Congratulations, you’ve awoken before the world.

I no longer find it romantic,
how fireflies really do look like flickering stars
(trite, but truthful),
or how on summer nights my heart is struck by the inevitability
that I will leave this world,
not the other way around.

I no longer find it romantic,
the dreaming after the drinking
—before the nausea comes—
when we turn into the kind of people
people write stories about:
gorgeous, wild, and young.

I no longer find it romantic,
the city skyline from my rooftop.
We thought we were so alive then,
dangling our legs off the balcony.
We blew smoke into neighboring windows
and I never felt more alone.

Alexei Varah is a student at Hunter College High School in NYC.

Deep Winter, Deep Cold

“The Magpie,” oil on canvas, by Claude Monet, 1869.

by Hayden Saunier

I don’t know if the blue jay
froze to death or first stunned herself
against the woodshed, then fell
onto the ice-hard snow

but there she lay,
bright blue brushstrokes
edged with black
against gleaming, solid white.

I picked up the body, slid it
out into the snowfield that none of us,
not deer, coyote, woman, fox,
could cross until melt came.

By morning, it was gone.
No tracks. Nothing broke the snow.
So I know she was taken up
by something with wings.

Hayden Saunier’s work has been published in journals such as 32 Poems, Shenandoah, Thrush, Southern Poetry Review, The Sun, and Virginia Quarterly Review, as well as featured on Poetry Daily, The Writer’s Almanac, and Verse Daily. Awards include a Pushcart Prize, the Pablo Neruda Prize, the Rattle Poetry Prize, and Gell Poetry Award. Her newest book is Wheel.